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tetibe semester nih.. aku terasa mcm da bnyk wat slh.. banyak yg terlepas.. dan sgt kurang menghargai.. bersyukur.. dan jauh dari yg sepatutnya.. azam baru.. nak bnyk kn solat jemaah.. rajin bc matsurat.. pose sunat.. setakat nih biler wat sumer tuh.. aku dpt rasa lbh baek.. muka lapo..ngn carrot susu fav kami =) biler pose jer.. aku mesti teringat dak kecit nih.. kuat mkn.. tp asek nak jimat jer.. rasa kenyang biler tgok die mkn.. nasi goreng ayam kunyit adik nyer order isnin lps dia tmn aku buka.. lps ptg tuh mcm separuh mati tmn dia jogging.. hahaaa~ dia lupa yg aku nih da tua.. mane r lrt mcm dia tuh.. tp serunuk dpt jogging ngn adik sy.. sbb seumur hidup xpnh wat sesame.. nasi goreng daging black paper hee~ aku nyer.. niat buka masa rituh mmg nak mkn besar.. siyes penuh satu meja.. aku mkn ckt jer da knyg.. sbb serunuk tgok adik mkn.. walaupon die selalu jauh.. sibuk.. tp aku hrp dpt jg di...

lately.. bnyk cerita di udara.."on air" pasal aku.. hurmmm.. ader yg ok.. n ader yg x ok.. aku x kesah da aper org nak ckp.. sbb aku percaya.. satu masa nnt yg betol ttp akn diketahui.. aku bertuah sbb ada family yg selalu sokong aku.. kwn2.. even lecturer yg baek hati nak dgr masalah aku.. tnx God for that.. tapi ader someone who really help me through all this.. she was a close frnd.. dia selalu dgr masalah aku.. bg nasihat.. tgh sakit pon still akn dgr aku membebel.. selalu tego klu aku wat slp.. n yg penting.. die berbeza dari yg len.. the best things r.. we started to share our life.. what wrote between the line.. every chapter slide in our present days.. n glad to have that feeling.. COMFORT.. die pon ader prob.. n i know there were times i cant be there for her.. so i bought her something.. "a charmed bracelet"  i want her to know that i'll try my best to be a gud frnd.. n i wish i cou...

dulu.. klu otak serabot.. n bnyk pikir yg x pnting.. aku akn ngamuk n maki hamun org len.. tp skrg.. aku bnyk diamkn jer.. termenung berjam2.. dan pertama kali roomate aku sound tepek.. "ko nih ada adeq pon ssh, ader awek pon ssh..sumer nyer ssh.. x reti besyukur betol..tiap2 mlm ader org anto mknan.. apa lg yg x cukup?" tersentap..! betol apa yg dia ckp.. aku ni x besyukur.. aku selalu pikir yg org lupakn aku.. tp sbnrnya aku yg x pernah puas.. masa konvo aku.. adik aku x dpt dtg.. lps subuh dia da kol nak wish.. aku still marah dia.. bezday aku die salah tarikh.. then blnja aku buka pose tuk bezday.. baca doa.. n anto aku blik hostel.. still aku marah dia.. die belikn kek beberapa hari lps tuh.. tunggu aku kt bilik.. then aku buka kt tmpt len.. dia still kene marah.. 3 hari lps tuh.. dia belikan satey minang.. jauh giler.. anto kt bilik n aku tido.. x bgun pon ucap terima kasih.. esok aku m...

jam2 terakhir 2011.. Ya Allah.. kau ikatkanlah hati kami dgn kasih syg.. yg utuhnya kekal sehingga nafas tiada.. sehingga akhir masa.. dan dgn kasih itu hati ini sentiasa bersama mu.. Ya Allah.. perkenankan doaku... Shamsiah ismail Yaacob isam Nursara Yaacob Nurakmar Yaacob Mohd Fathi Hussien andai mereka bukan dihatiku Ya Rabbi.. tempatkan mereka di hatimu Allah.. agar aku tahu.. mereka lebih disayangi.. mereka tidak disia2kn.. dan tidak pula terluka.. Ya Allah.. limpahkanlah hatiku dgn kasih syg.. agar hilang suram hariku.. hilang sunyi hayatku.. walaupun kasih itu tidak berbalas.. aku yakin.. kasih ku hanya kerana mu Ya Rahim.. ameen..

i wish.. u wish.. we wish.. they wish.. if all the wishes would come true.. i bet no more tears will drop on this earth.. but God have his own way in giving bless.. sometimes i wish i could lend a hand.. do my part.. gave help to those who need me.. wrap my self up n donate for charity.. =) but life is not in our hand.. as faith took it place.. everything will work in better way.. i wish they were.. i really hope i could help him.. take out a lil burden off him.. thats why im rushing myself through times.. cant wait to start working.. help my beloved family.. i wish i could give everything my parents want.. grant all my lil sis dreams.. shove all my sis tears n shone her a better light.. built a better life for my lovely lil brother.. create spaces called love in my own life.. i wish i could kept my promises.. i want my sis, lil sis n lil brother to built their own life before i did.. no matter how long it takes.. how long to wait.. i will.. coz i do...

this were our krafkami new collection.. it was inspired by those who i really cared this day.. those who are as much important as my day is.. the stories goes... mr.sunny a gift for someone.. she was  an important person to my lil brother.. she means alot to him.. like sun.. i knew sometime im a bit hursh on him.. i really wanna have that moment..alone.. but sometime things are better left unspoken.. i hope by giving mr.sunny to her will make her feel better.. coz that wat would make my lil brother a much better.. cumulus.. my lil brother were like those cloud.. gathered.. sharing his shade.. for people he love most.. always around them.. got highly motivated life.. i wish i were there.. but i just cant.. rainbow.. she was a great friend to me.. always someone who got positive emotion.. giving her speech.. like those teacher i once had.. huhu.. she always motivated me to swap off the tears.. n had ...

nyesal blik mcm tuh jer.. smpi rini.. hati still rasa berat.. smpi rini.. mata still bengkak.. nangis mcm org bodo.. tp aku tawu aku x bodo tuk syg dia.. dia baik.. cuma.. dia.. aku.. aku cube bg dia ruang.. tp aku rasa aku yg xley terluang.. aku cuba phm.. cuma.. aku belum cukup kuat tuk rasa sumer tuh.. segalanya akn baek? harapan.. mungkin ni yg terbaek untuk kami.. jauh.. cuma ati sentiasa teringat.. 1000 more years....? wish we could have that kind of period.. so many things can be shared.. but if im given option.. to have another 1000 years.. i would not going to grant that wish.. it was better for me to died with the memory.. im sorry.. i couldnt wait.. i wish...