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da seminggu melarikan diri dari kolej.. i think this PAPER things really burden me up.. a lot.. it is simple.. but i make it sound worse.. biler mula jer wat paper nih.. mkn = daging black PAPER.. minum = PAPERmint cool blog wat kijer = PAPER cut sumer ada paper.. one thing for sure.. i lost my identity.. i dont have time for any other great things to do.. im only know how to break thing rather then make one.. tamper in highly risk of death.. n worse...i hurt everyone feeling.. one week looking for answer.. n today.. i found it hide in nature.. RAIN* "SOMETIME we need to understand all, its not what we always want most.. but what others need" tomorrow im going back to college.. i wanna start new.. i knew i was not a good writter.. but those good writter doesnt burried with his paper right? i will do the best.. not for u or others.. but for me.. A is not my aimed.. A GOOD WORK IT IS.. KUIS HERE I COME...=)

few weeks in new semester.. DULL* it started wrong... working up wrong.. n still...wrong! i dont know wat to do next.. org akn pndang aku..dan ckp.. UNTUNG lah...ada itu.. ada ini.. ada dia.. huuh..do they really know wat i need most? when HE walk out from my life.. he took away a big junk of me.. part of my heart.. box full of memories.. and he left me with a single DOTS.. a SCAR..that doesnt really appear but hurt more then dead would be.. sometime i wish i could disappear.. but dark wont shade me.. i wish i could shone.. nor light will be that great.. i wish i could stop.. but life still ahead.. i start a day.. with a HOPE of getting cured.. a hope of getting a new place to hide.. a hope of being love n to love.. at the end of the day.. it goes HOPE----less.. the last word u said.. "life goes on" will filled in the last part in my heart.. i HOPE it grow.. till my life is complete.. and oneday.. ...

diharapkan post kali nih tidak mendatangkn sebarang imej yg salah.. last few days aku ada terbaca satu post in blog n on fb walls.. it saids "SAY NO TO SAME GENDER MARRIAGE" this is becoz? "KIDS WILL LOST THEIR RIGHT TO HAVE BOTH PARENT" inilah yg rmi pertahankan.. is it true? use other excuses... but never use this one.. u know y? perkahwinan yg sah.. anak yg sah.. but still doesnt get enough attention from both parent.. yg dieorg dpt pe? mama bibik* or abang-la... yg lbh teruk.. perkahwinan x sah.. anak...? campak dari tingkat 11.. bakar.. buang sungai.. simpan bawah katil..! atleast those who love same gender know how to appreciated god gifts.. dont only looks at the dark side.. i dont mean to highlight which side is better.. but when u think out of the box.. make sure u think from the right box.. have u guys watched mirror2? yes.. go n find that huge mirror.. tgok aper yg korg sentiasa terl...

hurmmm... sekejap jer da 8 november 2012.. x lame lg tmbh la umo aku.. mlm ni x terasa nak tido awal.. bru abes tgok marlyn monroe.. siyes x tepikir nak tgok citer tuh.. but the real fact behind that movie really thrill to to watch.. citer nyer pasal sorg yg terlalu ingin berjaya.. sanggup buat apa jer tuk kejar impian tuh.. sorg lg terlalu mencintai.. dan sanggup buat mcm2 kerja tuk bantu yg td capai impian nya.. but in the end, both lost on their hopes.. i kept on mumbling by my own.. "bodo betol lelaki nih...x nmpk ke kene guna?" then i realize something.. aku pon pernah buat sumer tuh.. hurmmm... marlyn akhirnya bunuh diri.. then bob teruskn hidup mcm biasa.. that is what i need to do.. move on.. dah beberapa ketika tanpa fb.. rasa lbh tenang.. bnyk hargai masa untuk sesuatu yg lbh baek.. aku da mula hilang sumer rasa rindu tuh.. skrg aku cuma ada dia.. yg sentiasa ucap "i love u" n i knew dia mmg syg aku.. tapi.. (terhenti ...

tonight i learn another facts.. why some ppl like me more.. and why some of them hated me badly.. this is me.. im not the one who stay..left..or wounded ur memory with lies.. plz do not judge me with ur past.. im real..and none of me reflect them.. dia pernah ckp... "np potong rambut mcm tuh?" "saya suke tgok awak nyer style" then this night i finally know why... --I look just like HIM-- didnt i? its kindda sad.. knowing that someone like or love u.. just becoz u look like what they had earn years ago.. u believe u step here.. but ur mark had been there.. --im just like a shadow-- nobody will care.. it was damn hard to let go.. yet too dump to stay while knowing that im not the one.. yg dia rindu...syg...or wat eva.. why do i wish to stay.. why do i have to face this.. do i have to move on without...? i missed u damn much.. i wish this is just a dream...

bulan nih.. sgt bnyk membebankn otak.. sgt bnyk memikirkn.. yg lalu.. sekarang.. yg depan.. bulan nih gak aku plg bnyk menangis.. sgt mcm dak kecik.. xtawu np.. but each time i remember those IDIOTS.. tears falls.. that make me another IDIOT.. terlalu bnyk yg aku dah ilang.. 24 tahun.. cukup bnyk masa yg dihabiskn untuk menyayangi.. berkongsi perasaan.. yg akhirnya.. tetap sendirian.. hidup sekadar mimpi.. indah seketika.. ngeri pon sementara.. tapi kesan nya kekal...sampai bila2.. rindu untuk gembira.. senyum.. tertawa.. tapi.. menangis lbh mudah.. aku syg dia.. aku cinta dia.. aku rindu dia.. aku perlukan dia.. dan setiap DIA adalah org berbeza.. bukan tamak.. tapi hati akan kekal begitu.. tnx sbb pernah ada dlm hidup sy.. dan benarkan saya untuk terus disini..

lately sgt kerap teringat kt dia... mungkin dia rasa aku nih kwn yg x guna.. or aku da lp kn dia.. aku tanya kwn2 len.. dia sht...? baby dia ok ker? i did remember all those great moment we once had.. tp aku tawu there is no way HE gonna let me see both of them.. hari tu... lame gak bediri kt dpn lovely lace mid.. tgok kasut baby gurl.. cumil.. aku tawu klu beli pon aku xdpt nak bg.. n confirm baby tuh akn dpt yg lbh bek.. mungkin pd org len baby tuh x same.. but to me that lil angel will always be angel.. n aku sgt berharap.. dia xkn sia2 kn satu lagi kehidupan.. aku nak baby tu tawu dia ada uncle.. mungkin x sebaik org len.. but at least aku cube tuk jd baik.. mungkin satu masa nnt tuhan akn temukan aku ngn mereka.. x kira bila.. aku ttp akn tggu.. dia mesti akan cantik mcm mama dia.. slmt mlm...