singletears

post kali ni sedikit emo dikala usia meningkat remaja purba.. hahh! usia sekadar number yg penting hati muda.. sedar x sedar tinggal aku sorg yg lom kawen.. anak tunggal lelaki mungkin.. tu yg agak susah berjauhan dr keluarga.. -(alasan)- mungkin juga sbb aku terlalu hangat dipasaran.. sampai xtawu bila nak wat pilihan.. -(kenyataan)- lupakan edisi melodi... jom pikirkan persekitaran org2 berumah tangga... aku cuma rasa kesian.. tgok mak n ayah xpernah berehat dr muda smpi skrg.. aku pon xdpt nak mmbantu bnyk.. -(ekonomi xstabil)- cukup sekadar ada untuk berkongsi masa.. klu ikutkn pemikiran waras.. mak n ayah pttnya da berehat.. bersenang2 kt rumah impian mereka.. bkn bgun awal pg uruskn rumah.. jaga cucu smpi ptg.. memasak...  nak luangkn masa untuk solat pon terkejar2.. sedangkn nenek segelintir yg lain punya waktu untuk berFB.. konon nya menjaga ibadah..solat ikut waktu... sedangkn waris sendiri x ambil tahu.. ada pula segelintir makhluk.. hampir ...

it have been a while i didn't put my finger onto this page.. how i miss to write something.. to share my feeling.. but "TIME' concurred my life line.. (just another excuse) actually i think im changing.. i dont even know whether its gonna be good or not good enough.. for a second time.. i didnt think i could controled my anger like i used too.. i kept doing the "HORRIFIED" things.. scolding people over simple mistake.. yes its me.. the "ONE" no one wanna have in their life.. actually.. it wasnt bout jealousy or grunge that i kept inside.. but it was a tiny little thing inside of me.. which keep on telling me.. "PITY" you..u can do nothing.. how i wish i could do anything to help them.. how i love my family for things that nobody cares.. i love them.. i had draw a line in my life.. that there shouldnt be another heart that i will care for.. coz.. maybe for others.. knowing n loosing someone is a lesson they learn.. ...