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when pictures speak more then words...

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bila yg hilang itu kelihatan..

beberapa hari lps..
aku sgt2 terkejut ngn aper yg aku dgr..
something that i would neva tot will hppnd..
its take more then one day to know bout someone..
maybe a life time wont be enough..
and the worse is..
when u just feel comfortable with the situation..
and hopping that they might stay with u..
they left..

DIA cakap..
"i'm going back by the end of this year"

n i said..
"great...! cant wait..really miss u"

then DIA said..
"i'm going to get married..my dad want me to marry his choice..
he is the only person i have now..after my mom died march last year..
i dont want to hurt my dad's feeling..."

i said..
"wow...it was great..ur father must be soo proud of u.."

DIA said...
"i hope u understand my situation..."

i said..
"ofcoz i am..all i eva want is to see u build a warm loving family.."

i lost my words..
its kindda stuck inside..
soo hard to breath..
so many question running through my mind..
could u..
cant u..
would u..
but the right way to…

maafkan aku..

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kadang2 kiter terlalu leka ngn aper yg ada sekarang... kita lupa pada yg pernah ada.. da terlewat untuk hargai.. tapi sentiasa tidak terlewat untuk membetulkan..
aku pon harap ko akan bahagia.. and i knew u are eppy.. sampai skrg aper yg ko tulis nih.. sentiasa wat aku rasa bersalah.. mmg salah aku.. tapi ada sbb aku wat mcm tuh..
aku mintak maaf sangat2.. tapi x harap pon ko akn maafkn aku.. aku cume nak betolkan aper yg ko salah paham.. ko pernah ckp.. "i know why u want to clear all this, coz i look better now..right?" WRONG!! aku x pernah sekali pun suke someone sbb rupa paras dia.. aper pun.. skrg da x penting.. tnx tuk adiah tuh.. and tnx pernah wat aku eppy..



Jangan terlalu mencari KESEMPURNAAN.

yg indah itu rupa??

kadang2 kiter x sedar.. yg kita bnyk wat silap kn..? terlalu memikirkn kepuasan.. tanpa memikirkan perasaan org lain..
kiter selalu cakap.. "sng berurusan ngn dia CANTEK-PANDAI-MESRA" tapi yg sebenarnyer kita cuma pandan yg luaran jer.. bler jmp org yg x berapa CANTEK.. baik mcm mn pon ati xder terdetik pon nak puji.. hurmmm.. manusia n NAFSU..
bile kiter ckp "SAYANG" pernah kita fikir kenapa? atau mungkin ada maksud tersirat..? hurmmm.. sekali lg.. luaran jd pilihan..
aku x pernah kesah ngn saper aku rapat.. hensem KE x hensem ker.. cantek KE x cantek ker.. kaya KE miskin.. sumer tuh x pnting.. yg pntg diaorg ikhlas nak berkawan..
dlm seni.. yg SEMPURNA tuh bkn seni.. soo yg terlalu PERFECT or CANTEK.. nilai nyer x setinggi yg NORMAL.. sbgai ORG seni.. saya lbh senang dgn kata2 nih..
soo lps nih.. wat kijer ngn MATA hati.. jgn terlalu memilih.. sbb blom tntu kamu yg terbaik..
p/s eppy bezday..love u soo much.. muahx! 21 march 2011 =]

esok..

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bila hari baru muncul...mcm2 dlm kepala nih.. pikir mcm mn nak selesaikan kijer.. tanggungjawap yg melambak.. apa yg perlu dibuat..
kadang2 terpikir gak.. benda2 yg da lepas.. ader yg seronok nak pikir semula.. ader yg menyakitkan ati..
i tried to live with all that.. hoping that one day it all gonna change.. wat used to hurt me.. might be the best thing i could ever felt..
life are always a divided path.. which one u choose will be part of ur life.. dont eva be afraid of turning back.. coz if u go to far.. but neva find its ends.. u will endup engraving ur wrong doing..
kenangan tuh untuk di ingati.. teruk mcm mn pon.. still part of our past.. move on n hargai aper yg ada skrg..
jgn terburu2 mencari ganti.. mungkin kelak ada yg lbh baik tercipta.. DIA lebih tahu..
kita terus mencuba.. akhirnya...lebih bermakna.. x salah tuh bermandikan air mata.. lemas ngn kesilapan.. or even kecewa dgn pilihan.. selagi tahu...mahu..dan cuba untuk berubah..
Allah itu adil.. DIA pasti temukan pengakhiran yg indah.. saya syg Dia.. tapi…

biler hidup penuh alasan..

sejak akhir2 nih..
agak terasa "tua" gak la..
biler tgok anak2 buah..
adik sedara..
sumer da beso..

biler da rase tua nih..
agak terkilan gak biler asek kene tipu..
kawan rapat pon xley blah..
idop asek menipu..

aku nih bukan r bek sgt..
tp susah r nak menipu org..
klu perlu jer ok la kn..
tapi nih da mcm xder alasan lain..

biler msg x bls..
kol x angkt..
alasan..
"alamak sori la aku bz"
kenyataan...
merayap kehulu kehilir..
alasan ke2..
"ala saja lepaskan tension"
hangin nek kepala..
"habah ko tensen! aku nyer salah ker?"

klu aku ley wat sendri..
aku x suker sshkn org..
xder nyer nak mntk tlg kt org..
segan gak..
tapi mmg klu da dasar..
PENIPU kaki ALASAN..
sampai mati la x berubah..

betol kot..
org selalu ckp..
"kt dlm dunia nih klu xder yg menguntungkn org xkn tlg"
mmg pon!
aku bnyk tlg org..
kdg2 smpi tercekik..
nak mkn pon ssh..
bkn nak ungkit..
tp hotak korg xder nak pikir mcm tuh..
aku x heran pon..
xper Allah tau..

tapi ingt la...
klu ada pe2 yg korg nak mntk tlg nnt..

saya mao daun cumil..

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back to my fb latest post..
im looking forward to collect leaves
from anyone who cares to give
one great memories

i'll pull out 2 names
"randomly"
n give away 2 gift
that i myself made it..

all leaves collected will be
presented in one of my art collection..
and hope to flash it out
in one of the next program i attended..
tnx for the support..
=]


si musuk yg sy syg...

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