Saturday, December 31, 2011

aku izinkan ia pergi..

jam2 terakhir 2011..

Ya Allah..
kau ikatkanlah hati kami dgn kasih syg..
yg utuhnya kekal sehingga nafas tiada..
sehingga akhir masa..
dan dgn kasih itu hati ini sentiasa bersama mu..

Ya Allah..
perkenankan doaku...

Shamsiah ismail
Yaacob isam
Nursara Yaacob
Nurakmar Yaacob
Mohd Fathi Hussien

andai mereka bukan dihatiku Ya Rabbi..
tempatkan mereka di hatimu Allah..
agar aku tahu..
mereka lebih disayangi..
mereka tidak disia2kn..
dan tidak pula terluka..

Ya Allah..
limpahkanlah hatiku dgn kasih syg..
agar hilang suram hariku..
hilang sunyi hayatku..
walaupun kasih itu tidak berbalas..
aku yakin..
kasih ku hanya kerana mu Ya Rahim..


Thursday, December 29, 2011

i wish..i wish..i wishh....

i wish..
u wish..
we wish..
they wish..
if all the wishes would come true..
i bet no more tears will drop on this earth..
but God have his own way in giving bless..

sometimes i wish i could lend a hand..
do my part..
gave help to those who need me..
wrap my self up n donate for charity..

but life is not in our hand..
as faith took it place..
everything will work in better way..
i wish they were..

i really hope i could help him..
take out a lil burden off him..
thats why im rushing myself through times..
cant wait to start working..
help my beloved family..

i wish i could give everything my parents want..
grant all my lil sis dreams..
shove all my sis tears n shone her a better light..
built a better life for my lovely lil brother..
create spaces called love in my own life..

i wish i could kept my promises..
i want my sis, lil sis n lil brother to built their own life before i did..
no matter how long it takes..
how long to wait..
i will..
coz i dont need cars if no one to sit beside me..
i dont need house if no one going to fit in them..
i dont need gold n silver to sparks..
i just need them..

i love them more then i love myself..
i wish i could do more..
give more..
O' Allah..
spare me some more times..

Tuesday, December 27, 2011


this were our krafkami new collection..
it was inspired by those who i really cared this day..
those who are as much important as my day is..
the stories goes...

a gift for someone..
she was  an important person to my lil brother..
she means alot to him..
like sun..
i knew sometime im a bit hursh on him..
i really wanna have that moment..alone..
but sometime things are better left unspoken..
i hope by giving mr.sunny to her will make her feel better..
coz that wat would make my lil brother a much better..

my lil brother were like those cloud..
sharing his shade..
for people he love most..
always around them..
got highly motivated life..
i wish i were there..
but i just cant..

she was a great friend to me..
always someone who got positive emotion..
giving her speech..
like those teacher i once had..
she always motivated me to swap off the tears..
n had a better life ahead..

this is me..
rains my own life..
dark..n emotionless..
n i wish i could be those cumulus..
always been needed..
always be part of me..


nyesal blik mcm tuh jer..
smpi rini..
hati still rasa berat..
smpi rini..
mata still bengkak..
nangis mcm org bodo..
tp aku tawu aku x bodo tuk syg dia..
dia baik..

aku cube bg dia ruang..
tp aku rasa aku yg xley terluang..
aku cuba phm..
aku belum cukup kuat tuk rasa sumer tuh..

segalanya akn baek?
mungkin ni yg terbaek untuk kami..
cuma ati sentiasa teringat..

1000 more years....?
wish we could have that kind of period..
so many things can be shared..
but if im given option..
to have another 1000 years..
i would not going to grant that wish..
it was better for me to died with the memory..
im sorry..
i couldnt wait..

i wish...

Monday, December 26, 2011

26 december 2011

tengah kemas2 barang..

dak cumil nih tanyer..
"pakcik nak g mana?"
aku ckp nak balik umah..
"napa pakcik nak balik?"

aku senyap..
napa berat sgt....?
trus pelok dia..
"pakcik ada kerja, syg.."

berat nak tinggalkn mereka sumer..
tapi lbh berat nak hadapi SAAT tuh..
cukuplah aku tawu yg aku sayang dia..
hanya dia yg tahu..
maafkn abg..

22 December 2011

22 December 2011
12.05 am..

Still dragging this eyes to sleep..
It wont even shut for a second..
Sometimes im annoyed with my own self..
The way I set things around me..
The way I stand along all the lies..
The broken promises..
It hurts…

I often said..
“its for ur own good”
“im doing this not to get paid in any ways”
But I lied..
I wish those people would hear me..
I wish people would understand me..
I need them..
I need them to know how much I want to be with them..
As often as I could..
Like sun during days..
Like moon at night..
I wish..

I would love to spell my thought out..
But I done it before..
Where it goes straight to alley of nothingness..
It hurt me more..
N I choose not to do it again..
Faking this smile..
Shading this tears..
This would be the way..

I’ll let this heart <3 decide..
Im a slave to my own feeling..
I wont be running even got the chances..
Coz I knew..
Running away wont HUSH the feeling..
Things I kept inside..
Im stuck..
I love u..
But u neva love me that much..
Should i….?

17 December 2011

One whole day with double bless..
My bff n adik..

It startd with a plan on going for educational fairs..
Then it goes straight into lot of amusement..
Great fun n joy..
It might just be a window shopping..
As I dried out of cash..huhuaaa~
But It gave us some new memories..
Better then the rest we had before..
N I admitted this 3 days was more awesome then 3 years ago..

Every year on xmass eve..
Zahar n me will always be in center of midvelley..
Jumping around the great deco..
Nice songs..
Good spot for “cuci mata”
The same goes on this year..
But I was thrilled more..
As my lil brother had come together..

We had one great xmass eve few years ago..
It was our first..
Now it flips all the memories open..
For a better things to be remembered..
He smiled more..
Laugh more..
N much more “mesra”..

When times out..
We got on the train..
I already miss them both..
Time is slipping away..
Few month ahead will be another adjustment in our life..
Zaha will finish his bachelor n adik will done his diploma..
Wish time would stop now..
I don’t mind of getting old..
Just I hate so much of saying goodbye..
N here I am..
All by myself..

O’ My Lord..
Spare us another life..
Another great life to shared..

I really hope E.N.D won’t become a dead ends for this lovable relationship..
Wat we have before is already tide out in my memory..
And wat we have now will stay in a better place..
Love u guys more..
Tnx zaha & fath..

Khamis 15 disember 2011

Jadual pack..
Rehat sejam jer..
Kelas abes kul 8.15pm..
Tp serunuk dpt kuar ngn adik..
Nak g mkn kt nilai..
Gedik dinner pon nak g nilai..

Sampai je nilai..
Terus cari tmpt mkn..
Adik nak abc special..
Abes lak..
Nak daging penyet pon abes gak..
Mkn r baryani daging..
Ader ker baryani mkn ngn togeh??
Daging dia bnyk tp sumer keras giler!
Tp xper la serunuk dpt mkn samer..

Blik tuh beborak lg..
Cerita kisah yg xder dulu..
Everything started to change..
Exactly the way we suppose to be before..
Thanks God..
For every second He spared me with..
2nd night he slept here..
Nothing much to talk..
After hours of chatting..
but only God knows how great it feel..
to woke up n there he waits..
Thanks again Allah..

Saturday, December 10, 2011

new passion's!

few weeks after some handsomely cash loaded into my accaunt..
i started to turn shopaholics..
gurhh...i am..
n no doubt i even start to create new hobby..
new passions..
the 1st novel i bought was..

agak tebal..
2-3 minggu gak baru abes..huhuaaa~
then next shopping spree..
i bought 2 more novels..

the sherlock holmes was greatly finished reading in one day..
as it was just few hundred pages..
the phoenix file have to wait..

im totally lost into this novels..
tawu novel lama..
tp cerita nih kenangan tgok ngn bff n adik aku..
i got it in a great deal from MPH books carnival..
damn great..
i just hope by reading those books will help..
to improve my english..
hope so..

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Monday, November 28, 2011

selamat datang tahun baru...selamat tinggal kenangan..

serunuk dpt blik cuti..
lepak2 kt umah..
ngn casabonda..
tp biler blik umah..
masuk bilik..
tgok keliling..
sgt menyiksa..

tapi memandangkn taun baru..
harapan baru..
masa untuk tutup sumer cerita lama..
lagipun aku phm sgt..
org len da lupakn sumer tuh lama dulu..

i still remember when i first get this gift..
he said..
"i hug it close to my heart before i wrap it up n send it to u"
and after years of keeping it that way..
i finally washed it for the first time..
n hoping that all memories drain out from it..
as i might move on without u..

1100 eko burung origami..
my valentine gift in 2004..
8 years n still counting..
n i finally agreed with what faith have been telling me all the time..
we should neva talk bout this again..
i really hope to get over all this in near future..
n hoping that u will soon found someone better..
someone really love u..
really cared..
n care for u most..
as i neva try to before..

nampak kamu..
tapi x lg mcm dulu..
hati ni da xley nak tgok lg kamu..
harap sumer nih x pernah berlaku..
terima kasih untuk tiap kenangan yg ada..
maybe im not the right person to tell u this..
i really hope u find a way to get out of the mess u made..
n Allah will always there for u..
as any human wont..

nak simpan kamo jauh2..
sbb kalu kamu dkt pon..
still rasa kamo jauh..
terlalu bnyk yg nak dikenang..
tapi yg sakit nyer lbh bnyk dari yg indah..
saya selalu hrp kamo akn ada..
mcm dulu..
sy xnak kamo sedih2 lg..
mungkin kamo rasa..
sy jauhkn diri sbb benci kamo..
sy wat mcm tuh supaya DIA x sakitkn kamo lg..
x marah kamo lg..
satu masa nnt..
kamo akn phm..
cuma masa tuh..
kita da x samer lg..

life is not aimed for perfection..
as no one will preserved the real meaning of that holy words..
so did u..
u r wat u r..
n to me u r one perfect lil brother..
u dont have to blow fire from ur skull..
to show u have great power..
coz u already show u r special since day one we met..
but time change..
u r different..
as u pray for..
n none of the changes met me in present..
thanks for ur time..

O' Allah..
thanks a lot for the smile u had bring me..
although each of it will soon disappear..
they had change me the way i am now..
where i believe a better person..
from what i had been before..
i love them in the name of u..
my Lord..

Sunday, November 27, 2011

x pernah berubah..

this post was exclusively wrote in memory of DBM..

after 3 years of waiting..
we finally get wat we have been dreaming for..
answer that we hope gonna change our near future..

years of waiting..
change every heart we met..
since day 1..
to the last bit of time..
for better?

siyes korg x pernah berubah..
still pentingkn diri sendiri..
aku x hrp sgt dpt lpk2 ngn korg mcm dulu..
by accepting that faith have its own match on u guys..
tp x perlu la over sgt..
this suppose to be our last gathering..
isnt it?

sartika embong...norainulfitri nordin..
still mcm dulu..
ckp lebih..
buat x reti..
da janji nak sabo tok amek pic sesamer..
tp biler da jmp family..
trus lupa diri..
korg da jmp family korg 2 ari lbh awal..
aku lgsung x jmp lg..
pon still ley tunggu..

pnt da aku sabo ngn korg..
biler aku ngamok..
sumer tarik muka..
klu mcm nih r kn..
bek xyah jumpa jer..
lg bagus..

kwn2 yg len plak..
mcm lps nih da xley jmp family lg..
sibuk ketengah ketepi..

tnx pd sesaper yg stay rituh..
siyes da xder mood nak pose..
aku da out dr DBM group nyer page..
mls da nak cmpo ngn korg..
lps nih nak remove dr frnd list plak..

only God knows how i felt..
nyesal marah korg?
x pernah nyesal..
biar sedar ckt..
jgn rasa diri tuh bgus sgt..

Saturday, November 12, 2011

terasa masa semakin singkat...

new semester just started..
to many things need to be done..
im missing home for one reason..
how much mom need me now..

sekarang da mula rasa tanggungjawap tuh..
bkn sbb kerja yg perlu aku wat..
tapi berat bila pikirkn..
satu masa nnt..
mereka akn pergi selamanya..
dan aku harap aku ada untuk tmn mereka nnt..

mak masih blom sembuh..
ayah pon ada jer yg sakit..
aku plak jaoh..
aku sentiasa doa mereka sihat..
dpt tgok aku mulakn hidup baru..
balas jasa mereka dgn apa yg aku mampu..

aku pon bnyk masalah..
aku tawu..
mereka lebih bnyk yg nak ditanggung..
lebih berat dari apa yg kelihatan..

i wish i had done more to help..
i wish i was there to keep them comfort..
i wish they could see a little family that i might have one day..
n i wish...this wish could cheer them up..

every time i step away from this house..
i wish i could say this..
"mak, ayah...everything will be just fine"
but i cant..
coz i know how much tears gonna run down my face..
thinking how much im gonna miss them..
i neva give them a hug..
i dont wanna say goodbye n hug them..
coz i always knew they will wait me there..

O Allah..
panjangkanlah umur mereka..
berikan kami kesempatan untuk membalas jasa mereka..
seperti mana mereka menyayangi kami..
dan janganlah kau duga kami..
dengan dugaan yg berat..
sesungguhnya kami..
hambamu yg lemah..

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

i dont wanna be rude..but..

sumer org ada cara masing2..
x kire wat aper pon..
aku pon..
nak knl org pon aku bnyk wat ikot cara aku..
even sometime nmpk mcm x penting..
or pelik..
tp this is me..

aku x paksa org ikot ckp aku..
but once u considered urself part of my world..
u have to accept every single changes i made..
if u wont..
u r free to walk out..

for some reason..
aku x suker org paksa2 aku terima dia..
x kesah la sebagai apa..
i knew with whom i wanna be with..

aku bg pluang tuk cube..
tp x reti hargai..
once i turn..
dont eva expect me to look back..
coz i wont..

klu ko da ras idop ko sempurna..
go ahead leave me alone..
i got my own problem to mess with..

life is not ours to keep..
ppl come n gone..
in a minutes..
or even a blink...

for now..
i think it would be enough..
good enough to have my family with me..
my sisters n 2 brothers..
u got ur own family right? 
so move on..

i dont want anybody else get hurt..
u have to know something..
i was not good enough for my self..
so did to others..

Monday, October 31, 2011

rindu sgt...

beberapa hari lps..
tgh2 korek file kt pc..
terjumpa pic nih...
ntah biler aku save..
ader gak kngan..

arwah firdaus..
junior aku dulu..
ingt masa mula2 jmp dia..
tgok mcm sumbung..
tp die penyegan rupanyer..

masa pindah bilik..
x sangka lak dia dok sama..
biler bgun pg..
senang klu kejot die bgun subuh..
cepat jer bgun..

dia antara junior plg sopan ngn aku..
setiap kali jumpa dia akn tego n salam..
dia nih kelako gak..
mcm lurus ckt..

dia ada pinjam buku aku..
seminggu pertama dia call..
"abg is, ley sy pdm notes yg abg salin kt buku ni?"
aku jwp..boleh...
minggu ke 2..dia call..
"abg is, ley sy tulis notes kt buku nih?"
aku jawap..boleh...
minggu ke 2..dia call...
"abg is, maaf..buku da ilang..nnt sy ganti.."
aku jwp..xper daus..abg da x pki lg..

dia abg yg baek..
anak yg baek..
kawan yg baek..
dan pd aku..
dia adik yg baek..

26 november nih dia sepatutnya konvo..
same ngn aku..
Allah lebih syg dia..
terima kasih daus..
tok sumer kngan yg ada..

"ya Allah...tempatkn dia disisi mu bersama org2 yg beriman.."

Sunday, October 30, 2011

terima kasih mak..

sekejap jer da nak abes sebulan cuti..
bnyk gak r yg aku wat sebulan nih..
what i love most..
walaupun x sedap mana..
tapi serunuk dpt wat benda yg x pnh wat sblum nih..

tiap2 kali nak masak..
mak akn ckp..
"yakin jer..kalu slh pon xper..
chef2 yg handal tuh pun dulu wat salah gak.."
mak selalu jd org pertama yg akn rasa aper yg aku masak..

ada satu masa tuh..
aku wat puding custard..
resepi dlm buku tuh x lengkap..
terus keras..
seketul jer..
aku menyumpah seranah kt dapo..
pastu mak dtg..
"xper...nanti cuba lg"

aku ngn hangin nyer cedok sumer tuh nak buang..
pastu mak ckp lg..
"eh jgn buang...xper nnt mak mkn.."
mak sentiasa sokong aper yg aku wat..

skrg mak x sehat..
da jarang ke dapo..
tp tiap2 kali aku masak..
mak mesti rasa..
walaupun sikit..

cepat sembuh yer..
sy nak masak banyak lg..

terima kasih gak pd ayah..
ayah x pernah merungut sy bnyk beli brg kt supermarket..
tiap2 minggu beratus beli brg..
klu aku masak..
mesti simpan tuk ayah..
ayah x bnyk ckp..
tp aku tawu..
dia syg kiterorg..

"ya Rabbi...beri kami waktu untuk balas jasa mereka"

Saturday, October 29, 2011

terima kasih..

terima kasih kerana paham sy..
cuma sy yg x pernah cuba phm awak..
terima kasih gak sbb bg link tuh pd sy..
walaupun sy sendiri x pasti..
samada sy perlu wujud lg ke x dlm hidup dia..

tnx gak pada kamo..
sy x sangka kamo akn ingt sy..
sy cuma rasa..
sy xder hak untuk ganggu hidup kamo lg..
sy pilih untuk hilang..
sbb sy yakin kamo pasti akn eppy..

sy harap..
satu masa nanti..
kita akn jumpa..
dan hargai masa yg ada sebaiknya..
xnak lg sebut cerita yg x pernah eppy ni..

satiap mlm..
sebelum tido..
sy akn tgok 2 benda..
mungkin pd org len cuma brg biasa..
pd sy..
ia amat bermakna..

happy star kamu kuning kn...? ermm..
hot air baloons aku..n panda ijau..kamo pon ijau gak kn..sbb xder pilihan..ermmm..

sy akn pastikan dua2 nih ttp sama..
kamo pnh tanya..
"np bg bintang besar tuh?"
sy ckp..
sbb x kira langit gelap mcm mn pon..
hujan lebat ker..
kamo akn ttp akn nmpk bintang..

panda ijau tuh..
akn naek belon panas tuh..
tuk cari..
yg terbaik untuk dia..
klako kn..
tu la sy..
sampai bila2 akn sama..

langit jarang ada bintang..
sbb kamo da ltk sumer bintang dlm balang..

Monday, October 24, 2011


ada masa nyer..
rasa rindu kt someone..
ntah mcm mane die skrg..

teringat masa dedulu..
serunuk sgt..
aku pon x pernah ltk "title"
untuk apa yg kami pernah ada dulu..

biler tengok iklan sunsilk..
terus teringat kt dia..
lama sgt x jumpa..

ader yg aggap aku bodo..
sbb lpskn apa yg aku suka..
apa yg aku sayang..
tapi tol ker?
aku pon x pasti..

dia pernah bagi tawu yg dia da lp kn yg lps2..
dia cube cari kebahagiaan..
she's bound to her past..
for the reason i dont even know y..
perlu ker aku teruskan?

dia ada pilihan dia..
dan aku undur diri..
tu yg pasti..
ayat terakhir dari dia..
" saya mahu kamo tawu kamo penting dlm idop saya"
sampai sekarang aku x phm..
tapi sumer tuh da berlalu..
aku harap dia bahagia..
dan xder org bodo yg buta..
betapa special nyer dia..

maaf ada yg perlu saya simpan..
maaf sbb ia x terluah..
saya harap kamo bahagia..

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Tuhan masih syg aku..
bagi aku peluang untuk eppy lg..
beberapa hari lps..
antara hari2 yg penuh makna bagi aku..
x pernah terpikir pon adik akn balik..

teringat masa mula2 kenal dulu..
everything seem so nicely welcome..
until i made it worse..
mmg salah aku..
x patot aku kawal hidup dia..
aku just xmo lg ilang org yg aku syg..
aku rasa aku da wat yg terbaek tuk dia..
rupa nyer aku wat yg terbaek tuk diri aku..
sgt pntingkn diri...
dan semuanyer berubah..

we are turning own different ways..
choosing our own destiny..
tapi jauh dlm hati ni..
nak sumer tuh kekal..
tapi aku xmo susahkn sesaper pon lg..
lbh bek lepaskan..

tapi x sangka dia tetap ada..
lps sumer yg jadi..
dia still ada untuk aku..
dari mula dia dtg..
casabonda terus ceria..
masak sesamer..
makan sesamer..
wat kijer pon sesamer..
dia sorg jer yg mewarisi ilmu mengait mak..
seronok tgok dia eppy..

empat hari sangat sekejap..
terima kasih pada family dia yg percayakn aku..
mungkin x serapat dulu..
tapi aku rasa kami lbh mesra begini..
normal for people to change..

Tuhan je yg tawu..
betapa seronok nyer biler bangun pagi..
katil sebelah x kosong..
ada org teman borak sampai tetido..
gurau x renti2..
& shares every single things we eva had..

terima kasih Allah..
terima kasih mak ayah kak long & ma..
terima kasih adik fathi..

mak selalu sebut..
"rindu kt syahad..
dulu klu usen balik syahad pon mesti ada.."
kalau la aku boleh cakap..
"mak..syahad xkn balik lg.."
tapi selamanya dia akn ada dgn kita....

Tuesday, October 18, 2011


 lama da x tgok sunrise kt laut..
bukan nyer jauh pon..
banyak sangat kenangan kt laut tu..
n ni kngan yg baru...


aku bkn jenis org yg akn lupakn kisah lama..
tapi ada masanyer aku rasa aku da simpan sumer tuh kt blkg..
terus kedepan..
tiap2 kali aku nak wat mcm tuh..
kenangan tuh berulang..
bukan x suka..
cuma terkejot..

aku baru siap2 tok maghrib..
tetiba aku dgr mak aku panggil..
"azzaat ada kt luar"
siyes terkejut giler..
last jumpa 2006
after 5 years what bring him here..
n yg plg terkejut..
x ramai yg tawu rumah nih..

ni lah azzaat..
kawan pertama aku masa sekolah mngah dlu..
laen plak rasa nyer biler bertaun x jumpa..
aku x pernah salahkan sesaper pun yg lupakn aku..
setiap org ada hidup masing2..
terima kasih buat yg masih ingt aku..

dia org terakhir yg aku terpikir akn dtg..
sangat x sangka..
mula2 rasa mcm sumer da berubah..
biler berjam2 borak..
everything seems to be just like we used to be b4..
tnx Allah for this one great memory..
tnx Azzaat sbb dtg cari aku..

Thursday, October 13, 2011

when love, cure and hate, change..

x sama mcm yg org pernah kenal dulu..

aku syg..
tp x syg mcm dulu..
aku suka..
tp x suka mcm dulu..
aku sedih..
tp x sedih mcm dulu..
aku rindu..
tp x rindu mcm dulu..

i slip n fell..
when i get up..
it change me..

im sorry..
sorry for not turning back..

Monday, October 10, 2011

semester breaks mean HEAVEN!!

for some people out there..
staying inside the house for one whole week
could be a disaster..
but not for me..

i was bless with few talent..
i believe a good one..
i love to design..
also to create something beyond my imagination..
mostly bout crafts..

this is what happen during my first week of semester breaks..
enjoy the view..

this was the first room bein redesign..
my own bedroom..
crazy over blue n white..

i've made this as its focal point..

the most enjoyable n memorable part..

craft corner i'd made it my self using old wooden box..
every angle have its own special pick!

second room was my sis..
using more nutral color making it look glimmers then b4..

third room belongs to my lil fairy..
red hot blinding colors..

both doors for this woodrobe is not functioning quite well  so i change it with curtain..

style ala2 katil siang..

nice and simple..
one month wont be enough for me..
lots of things i love to try on..
n i hope this gonna be a better start for me..=)

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

me n that little world of urs..

it was fun when people look at u..
and said..
"u have change a lots"
but behind that smiling face..
who will eva know what really change it..

when we care for someone soo much..
we would jump into fire..
or dive into an open sea..
without thinking what will happen next..
and when it happen..
we often said..
"i wish this would neva happen"

i have been living in the world..
that not everyone will survive..
world full of love..
but non would stay for long..

i knew..
some people might think i was jerk..
or worse..
tapi sumer tuh x pernah penting..
i'd made a promise..
to stay n care..
until i wont be needed anymore..
and i did..
i stay..

but what eva happen..
since we last met each others..
really hurt me..
looking at every single mistake u done..
without knowing where to stop..
even sometimes i dont even dare to look..

please change..
change to someone better..
better then i did..
i wish u were listening..
i know i was not good enough..
but u will neva knew how bad it would be..
stop what eva u r doing now..

i wish to tell u that..
but i knew..
u wont even turn..
but promise me..
to love urself better the anyone else did..

and i will always love u..

gempak starz!!

“ ader fiesta gempak starz at sungei wang plaza on 21 till 23 november,

Unfortunately I wasn’t there…but my lil bro do snap some to share but wait till I get my hand on it k..

there were some probs hppnd to the internet connection…arghh!!! Hate it..wait k”

life n tears...


coz i neva turn back....

life keep grabbing my heart out n left me hopeless with tears..

N yet I neva turn my back on them..

I’m holding my love too tide n lose my grip..

N yet I rather hurt myself then hurting someone else..

I’m trying my best to complete others..

N yet people will miss understood of who am I really was..

I always left my heart wide open for people to stay when they need a shelter..

N yet I’m the one who wondering around with no place to go..

If I touch a heart I’ll make it warm..

N yet mine will frost like winter untouched…

I kept my past right next to me, so I won’t forgot even a bit..

N yet people don’t even noticed dat I was there in their past..

If one day I closed my eyes n neva open for a second..

N yet all this will remain the same..

Coz it was u who make me someone..”

Iskandar issacc

if i neva touch the ground, would i b flying?


untouch luck...

it have been few weeks since the new sems started, but i haven't get the feeling yet..this sems seem to be started rough, as u may seen in the news lately, there have been a strike here..n it was bad..i was there, but....maybe just a wave would b better...

being cnior is not wat i tot it going to be, i'm trying to cope with it n yet i didnt come to any success.. i'm forcing my self to delivered wat i learn in past, n wat i meet is wat i dont want to happend..

next weekend i supposed to join a trip held at Cameron highland under the lead of brother john n once again i need to pull my self out..i need to focus on my final year project..lotz of things need to b prepared..n im soo sorry coz i miss the trip..

when u need to have someone by ur side, n u called them a "FRIEND"....but they arent there to help do u feel?? im trying the best i can for the whole world, n i do belive there is always a place i can stay in my rainy days...but i havent see it yet..

maybe i was a bad person then God send me asign that i am...if i was, i hope that there will always be an angel holding my hand till i reach the end...

p/s sorry abg john..

cinta yg bukan untukku....

aDa BanYak RasE CiNta DaLaM DunIa

tApi bUkaN sEmuA BolEh DiGapaI

hAnyA 1 CiNta yang aKan kEkaL


biler time cecuti...

ujung minggu lps besh giler....kengkawan dari kolej n USIM dtg lepak kt umah aku...perh meriah giler lg meriah dari meriah carey...ahakz!! spanjang minggu asek merayap jer..then biler mlm x tido asek pk saper lg nak kener kutok...wawawawaaa...

ni r zahar n nuar kawan bek aku dr dlu...bnyk kongsi citer sedey n eppy..skrg nih bru masuk sems baru..soo bnyk yg nak kener wat..seronok gak r dpt enjoy sblum abes cuti kn..

aper2 pon tnx kt korg yg sudi dtg melawat "casaBonda" huhu..ader maser free dtg lg k..result da kuar..sumer ok jer walaupon x gempak mane..soo now lets start another great journey!! yeh chayok2!!

cuti-cuti port dickson....jom!!


atas jeti.....3 bujang impian..huhuhuu..


uihhh....macho nyer...ehikz!


sands castle.....


ari da mlm....


jop baso kaki...hehe..


a great daddy of Rizq....


stylo nyer papa mude erk..hehe..


i wanna be a GREAT DAD too..

we will neva knew wat life will bring us in future..but wat i want is to be a great dad just like the person in the pic above..his name is "abg man" just like a brother to me..

die ader baby name nyer "muhammad rizq firdaus" cute kn?? huhu..i neva think bout marriage but i do love kids..few days ago i ask my mom "mak org nak amek anak angkt sblum kawen ley?" n my mom said "ko da giler?? jgn nak ngada.." ahakz!!

my life is a bit diffrent from others did..when i say i love someone, it mean i care..but to others it mean they were in love.. huhuhu..i love my attitude..i dont care wat others will said..

to my dad n others dad out there...u r such a great guy...n i hope i can b one soon...ahaaa..

p/s day i will propose someone from my blog..guess who?? huhuhu...



plastik kew keluli tahan karat??

post kali nih mcm 360' gak slalu ckp asal org sekarang makin teruk kn?? just look to the public..wat hppnd? dunia da modern baju pon xyah pki kn?? n yg plg hangin nyer..taw slhkn org but neva look 4 their own mistake..wat did u do to help?

aku ader knl beberape org guru muda..aku just dengarkn jer cerita yg ntah hape pasal dieorg nih..jop ngumpat jap..

1st kes guru pempuan..x bp rapat ngn aku tp dr aper yg aku tgok die x patot jd guru..u know wat u get from respect ur teacher? u'll learn how to respect ur self cikgu nih ajo anak murid die jd lg teruk..dgn pic ngarot2 ngn anak murid nyer..ntah r..aku raser bek dok umah jer or keje kt paso mlm sbb org mcm die nih taw merosakkan jer..

2nd nih cikgu laki lucky lak...kerja die menyalahkn org len, mcm2 yg anak murid die wat n sumer nyer salah..hey...why not, just look at urself n wat did u do...they wetre all 17-18 or maybe younger then u r..if u think dat u r going to enjoy ur age now..why cant they do the same?? xyah jauh la klu nak wat kijer jht nih..on9 pon ley jeer..aku mmg x phm, ko ni mungkin bodoh sbb minum air kencing cicak bnyk sgt kot.. klu da taw bender tu x elok wat per g cuber...u already know the effect la..aiyaaa...siao la lu..

3rd ni pensyarah...muda sgt n bangga dpt jd pensyarah...xder saper suker kener tipu kn? so ko raser jd pensyarah tu da bgus sgt...bek g dok kt pulau la ajo berok ker org utan.. die asek ngamok anak murid die wat hal jer kt kelas.. padahal die asek menipu mak bapak die 24jam..bgus ker?

disebabkn org mcm nih r yg akn jdkn dunia nih hancur...aku raser klu x g sekolah pon bgus daripada jumpa org plastik mcm nih.aku x risau da aper nak jd kt korg, tp sian mak bapak yg harap anak die jd bgus blajo ngn korg, ader gak yg bg alasan "aku bkn nak pon jd guru nih" hell u... move ur big bud away, ader rmi lg guru yg lyk ganti korg la..huh ni yg hangin nih..

k renung2 kn r masalah nih..aku mmg caci maki guru mcm nih..g r dok kt tasek ker pub ker disco ker menjaja or overtime kijer ker..dr merosakkn org len..huh..

daniel ngn adeq2 nyer..uhuuu..

daniel ngn adeq2 nyer..uhuuu..

picnic rayer tepi laot ader org wat ker??

picnic rayer tepi laot ader org wat ker??

kawan2..yg sgt rupawan ahakz!

kawan2..yg sgt rupawan ahakz!

cuti + raya = aku wahaha...

my sems break have started since 2 days b4 raya...n hell i am enjoying it alot..huhuhu..but too many things to do, n yet i'm well prepared for raya..1st day of rayer ends just nice like it always be..all the relative from my dads side were here...around 50 ppl in da house..wahaha..great im having sooo much fun n TIRED..!

2md day relative from my mom side..just few of them were here...n tnx God for dat ahakz!..then the raye continued to the next level...friendz..yes they do come..tnx to DANIEl n his lil bro the 1st person who came to my house, then ZAIE-IWAN-KELLY-KEMA n da UJAN BAND...huhuhu u neva gonna believe my..coz u know i'm lying..hukhukhuk..

raye is still in the air...but for me..its DONE! coz it time for me to enjoy my holiday...with or without others coz i'm used to it.. now i'm sitting in my room doing soo many thing dat i love to n neva got time to do it..dont ask..ahakz! hurmmm..

a day b4 raya, i got a huge box of gift posted from SARAWAK n i'm soo lucky to have it...huhuhu...tnx to my lil frnds n lil bro...i miz him..huhuhu..a craft from the land dat i neva step in yet n GOD' will i'll b there one day..

this is my first post after i finished my exam...yea final exam n im calming my self down of thinking how bad the result will be...huhuhu..yea just let it b i done the best i can rite.. hurmmm love to b around n glad to read u guyz updated blog..soo c yea bye...

kerana seribu bintang.....*

ni mungkin entry last untuk semesta nih coz aku still ader 3 paper exam yg lom abes lg then trus nak rayer...leceh giler bnyk sgt benda x siap nak diuruskan lg..

tujuan entry nih tuk singkatkan aper yg jadi dlm sem nih, n tuk ucapkan ribuan terima kasih tuk sumer yg da bnyk bantu aku dalam sumer urusan, moga urusan korg lebih dipermudahknNya.

sem ni lah sem yg plg singkt lebih singkt dari skirt amoi kt kedai topup tuh, bnyk sgt kenangan yg best dlm sem ni.. dari awal sem ritu aku jumpa mcm2 org yg amat2 buat aku bahagia..even that some of them were making their own ways now, i still can feel their presence here with me..

life will take part in everything u will do next, but wat its left will stay that way forever...aku mungkin banyk marah org kblkgan nih, tp x bermakna aku benci..n ramai org wat aku tension n sedey tp x bermakna aku da lupakn korg..n i hope i've bring-up lots of smile for this semestar..

pada aku, "semalam xkn berakhir hanya kerana tarikh bertukar, esok xkn terjadi hanya kerana ia tiada disisi, kelak xkn hilang selagi kenangan masih dihati" tnx alot for makin my life worth a 1000 sky..

anuar omar...*


siti fatimah kamaruddin *




awzaie Dr. mujaini....*




nurul nurzafirah...*


putra marzuki...*


brother john iverson...*


adam zikry...*








DBM4 student...*


bezday gathering...*

thanks a lot to all people dat try to do their best for r org2 yg sentiasa ader n pernah buat aku eppy sgt2...sentiasa sokong aku, sentiasa bg semangat, nasihat, dengar masalah aku..n jadikan tiap2 hari aku lebih bermakna..walaupon kenal dalam masa yg singkat...tnx n neva forget this memory u guyz alot...

minah terlampau....


ah long ma!!


exam pasar lambak..

kenape r perempuan nih selalu wat aku resah..hurmmm..
rini aku ader paper..exam final tuk sems nih..ader ker patot
da nak akhir exam tuh ader sorg awek yg x cantek pon..
angkt kasot die tinggi giler...aku mula2 x pasan
da r wana oren bekilat lak tuh...adoi..pening kepale..

aku wat xtaw jer dalam ati mmg panas jer...ingt die sorg ader kasot bru..huh..dgn tetibe aku jd lg hangin biler pempuan2 yg len mula becerita pasal kasot n antaranya ialah..
"kasot die tuh same jer ngn aku tp tinggi sikit" "kasot tuh da ok just wana jer x padan" "tgok kasot aku biru nih, bru gak" aku raser mcm nak hayun kerusi meja tuh kt kepale dieorg..

ader gak yg trus citer pasal raya..adoi...adoi...lg pening aku.. tp nak wat mcm mn truskn jer i kehidupan dengan kaum yg x bertamadun nih..huh! lps tuh bru aku perasan..nombor meja aku tuh da mcm tmpt tmpal notis "ah long" hurmmm...xper r.. nak wat mcm mn...nak senang xnak pikir kesan nyer nnt..

soo next time klu korg nak g exam kn..tlg bawak lastik..n batu bata..korg sental jer minah ker mamat ker yg melaran mcm org giler n mengganngu ketenteraman awam tuh..hurmm ok..
nak g buang panas dlu..

tuan punya blog....huhu..


nape DIA berubah...?

Banyak yg kiter lupe tentang persahabatan, kiter cume tahu kite lakukan kesilapan

biler kite kehilangan sesuatu yg kite hargai dan sangat perlukan..tanpa memikirkan

ape yg org lain perlukan dari kite..sedar x kite perlukan kawan hanya untuk sesuatu

1-kawan kiter bukan kedai topup, biler xder kredit jer kite cari..

2-kawan kite bukan tmpt kereta sewa, ble nak jalan bru ingat..

3-kawan kite bukan badan kebajikan biler xder duet bru nak tanye kabo..

4-kawan kite bukan supermarket, nak ape jer mintak..

5-kawan kite bukan funfair, biler eppy jer datang..

6-kawan kite bukan cafeteria bile lapo bru dtg mencari..

7-kawan kite bukan bustand dok tunggu org datang..

8-kawan kite bukan public phone, sumer org ley tompang call..

9-kawan kite bukan tuhan sentiasa tahu ape yg kite mahukan..

10-kawan kite bukan yang kite kenal dulu..

Ape yg kite pernah lakukan, dia akan ingat sampai biler2..

Kalu kiter sorg kawan kite akn paham hati kawan yg lain.

p/s-ada dalam satu blog sebelum nih, die kutuk dan maki hamun kawan die

siap cakap ketiak mmber dia berbau sbb x pakai deodorant, tp lps knl dia..

aku rasa hati dial g busok dari ketiak kawan dia..sedar la sblum terlambat!

a life i never wanted to have..

the great things happened when someone broke your heart is, it will brake into pieces and get more then it was before..if they dont break your HEART it will stay one part..and only enough for a person u love most...

in my life, people come touch my heart n then left without even say goodbye..its ok, it will never be their fault to do so..coz they gave me another way of being what i need to be...STRONGGER then ever..n yes i tear it all but its make me feel much better then i am before..

having a great life doesnt mean u have to be happy or each of ur wish need to come true..but the way u make it come true is well know as a life..that will lead u to be a BETTER person..

i found soo many intresting people around me, they were people that teach my how to have a great life here n here after.. they were not a PERFECT person, but a perfect frendz..

one day my life will ends too, before i close my eyes i want all of you to know that..wat ever happened as long as we know each others will be a nice MEMORY to me..n thanks alot for always being here..and willing to gave such a great smile for making my life worth a thousand skies..

remember my words, if someone break ur heart, turn to them and say " THANK YOU"...they have help you to become a better person then u are now...n Gods have said in Holy Furqan, "those who love their family and frends will enter heaven freely" so spread ur love n try not to hurt anyone..

DBM students...


speacially edited..


jejaka rebutan...


the moment that never went away..

poser ke 5 lepas kiterorg berbuke poser kt "Restoran Tasik Idaman" mmg best sgt2 the whole DBM was there..jarang sgt2 dpt pluang mcm tuh..walaupon budget nyer agak besar tp mmg puas ati sgt2...

segala mcm mknan ader...n bukan mknan yg wat keadaan tuh best kawan2 yg dtg n support, then sumer eppy smpi blik tuh..tempat tuh mmg agak best gak tuk lepak..tepi tasek yg sangat cantek...then alunan gamelan dari mula sampai hingga balik..

ader pic kt stage gamelan n the whole artis but got probs with the cameras maybe i'll put it mmg gempak giler..wish to have it again..

tnx alot to all frndz and the tasek idaman workers..walaupon perangai kiterorg jauh lg terok dr anto..huhuhu sumer pekerja lyn baek jer..huhuhuu..kenangan nih akn jd antara yg plg best satu ari nnt..

tuan muda iskandar...ahakz!


maharagu nuar...heee..


duda sepi....ehikz!

sabtu lps aku merayap ngn mmber baek aku kt nilai, nompang kt umah die..huhuhuu..taw naper? sbb aku ditinggalkn kesorangan kt bilik..mklum r org len sumer umah dekat jew..aku jauh ck8..

naseb bek nuar ader, gerak dr kolej da nak dekat buka...trus g kedai mkn then oder mknan yg sgt2 x trus mkn yer..tunggu azan dlu..huhuhuu..

lps kenyang melantak, blik umah nuar...berkenalan ngn rakan2 serumah then solat maghrib..rht2 jap pastu g solat isyak n teraweh kt "masjid PUTRA" best sangat...selalu dok teraweh kt bilik jer..lps tuh kite org merayap lg g mcm2 tmpt tok enjoykn ati yg sunyi..huhuhuu..

x lamer lps tuh blik umah..beborak smpi pg..tido 2 jam then bgun sahur lak..kt "manusalwa" mamak tuh...hehewaaaa.. tp sdp gak r..aku mkn NASIK lemak keras, roti TELOR n TEH sarbat...blik jer trus bertemu kasih ngn jamban..huhuhuuu..

kejap jer ngn mmg best sbb jarang dpt jumpa..tu yg org len x phm, kejap pon tiap2 yg jd tu bermakna..k..tnx nuar bwk aku jln2...nnt dtg lg..

ermmm...eppy? smile if u happy?

ermmm..aper pon yg jd dlm idop nih kn, we have to learn how to smile each time when u start ur day..klu sedey or hurt with someone u still need to find something that will make u smile..

think positive, make people look great...n dat wat they will do for wasnt made to be broken, people will neva stop saying bad thing to long as u know how to overcome all the obstacle u will find ur life more intresting then u ever know before..

all da sweet things will past u in a minutes, but dont ever stop from smiling..if u hurts, it will cure...the best medicine will be someone else smiling face looking at u even wordless...but u will know that they appreciated ur present...

smile...!! chayok...!!

uit....da rayer ker? pose biler?

hurmmmmmmmmmmmm...aku g mane2 sumer org cbuk nak cari brg2 rayer...poser nyer sari pon lom lagi..org2 kt malaysia nih mmg hebat2 tol r..sentiasa advance lebih dari castrol advance..wawawawa...ader ker patot aku nak g beli topup org tanyer nak g beli baju rayer ker?....hurmm..rayer hayah ko! wawawa..petang td aku dok siksa hamster r contoh2 kekejaman nyer..eheeeeeeee...

hamster makmur bersalut bijian rangop..

kadang2 macam agak terlampau gak aku nih erk?? huhuhu.. alar kejap jew...aku syg amster aku nih..walaupon nmpk mcm sedap aku mmg xpernah mkn amster aku klu korg teringin nak raser gtaw r aku ley tok korang..ahakz!

kueh raye aku taun nih..

ni yg paling sedap r aku raser setakat nih..kui3x...ader perasa yg pelbagai yerk..sebarang tempahan boleh hubungi 999 sambungan 999 klu xdpt kol jer hotline kami 1-800-7272 En.hotak kau bin md.sengal...huhuhuarghhhh!!!

almond-ster, tart-ster, rose-ster & mcm2 lg...


pose ngn bini org..wawawaaa...


seharian waktu bersama mu...

ANDAI... hari ini milik kita, gunakan sebaiknya kerana esok belum tentu untuk kita.

ANDAI... hari ini kita rancangkan sekemas mungkin tapi jangan lupa pada takdir yang menentukan segalanya.

ANDAI... esok buat kita kecewa,redhalah dengan ketentuan. Sengaja DIA tentukan sedemikian agar kita terus berhati2 untuk lusa yang akan menjelma.

ANDAI... lusa masih takuk lama, tiada perubahan,malah kekecewaan terus berlarutan. Sedarlah... DIA memang suratkan begitu agar kita sedar siapa kita di sisiNYA.
Agar kita lebih bersedia dengan segala kemungkinan yang tiba...



reborn....of me...

its have been a few week that this eyes were wounded with tears, n finally God answer my prayer and send me his angel.. wahahahaaa..ayat nak sedap..aku just nak ckp aku eppy skrg, not tide up onto some one, or tide someone to me..huhuhuuu...

days keep changging people around me, i do change but more to be real person not wat people want me to be..glad to know there were lots of people out there are looking for a frendz like me..

huhuhuuuu...bangga diri lak..i tot by being older i can get people respect, but i just realize dat respect is wat u will earn when u respect others.. sgt2 seronok skrg..each time count as a smile to me..thanks God for still making me smile day to day..

i rather be scolded by people i love then get closer to bad people dat use their smile to keep me comfort then kill in silent..huhuhuu...damn..! i love my family, my self, my frendz n all people around me...thanks guys...

mahal na mahal den kita...sanasy wala nang wakas..

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant
to be serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure
out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these
people may be but you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment
that they will affect your life in some profound way.

And sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible,
painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without
overcoming those obstacles you would never realize your potential,
strength, will power or heart.

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means
of luck. Illness, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer
stupidity all occur to test limits of your soul.

Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere
safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet affect your life. The successes and downfalls that you
experience can create whom you are, and the bad experiences can be
learned from. In fact they are probably the most poignant and important ones.

If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them because
they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of
being cautious to whom you open your heart.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you,
but also because they are teaching you to love and open your heart and eyes to
little things. Make every day count. Appreciate everything that you possibly
can, for you may never experience it again.

Talk to people whom you have never talked to before, and actually listen.
Let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high.
Hold you head up because you have every right to.

Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you
don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you.
Create you own life and then go out and live it.

Goodbye july…

Sangat berat tuk tinggalkan semua yg jadi dlm bulan july lepas, terlalu banyak detik beharga n kenangan manis samer ngn sumer org yg aku saying..but it was ended not the way It used to was undiscribeable , terlalu banyak kesilapan yg jadi x kire dari aku mahupun org len..

I lost 3 most wonderful person around me, the person I knew for a long time since we were kids, the person dat has been a part of our small family and the person dat I never think dat he will move away from every dream I made hurt me more then I could tell..

It felt like I’m loosing half of my life some where in past…if I ever could do something to get it back I will..there is no more tears to be cried, it was undiscribeable feeling towards it..they were someone special from the day we met, we know each others and promised dat wat ever happen we wont break apart.. but we did..

I just want every time we had together before to be wat we will do in present..maybe I was holding to tide onto wat I believe to be mine n suddenly I’m loosing my grip n lost it..only God knows how do I love u guys…I love u more then I love my self…it hurts when thinking about someone dat doesn’t even know u did, but I don’t care…if it hurt then it will long I can stand by ur side..

Please don’t walk away…if u were hurt by this word “aku nyesal kenal ngn ko” u should know one more thing “aku nyesal lepaskan ko”…I mean it..from bottom of my heart…soo please…please if u guys are reading this..please…don’t left me…I cant leave only by gasping half of my heart…please..i do love u guys a lot, I’m soo sorry..

love u to have it...

gift nih da lamer aku beli..n nak bg kt one of my best frnd..but he seems to be soo bz, our friendship are breaking up.. salah aku klu kawan..salah ker nak mintak maaf?

rindu sgt2 maser eppy dlu...arap ley ulang ari tu any relationship kiter akan bergaduh...n x rugi klu kiter mintak maaf..but if u want it to be ends here..its ok..just tnx 4 every smile u bring...miss yea...

do u love me?

Sometimes we say sorry because we felt deeply in love

Sometimes we say sorry because we care

Sometimes we say sorry because we hurt someone

Sometimes we say sorry because it's something normal to say

Sometimes we say sorry because it's the best thing and the best way

Sometimes we say sorry just to let the hurtfullness go away

Sometimes we say sorry eventhou we don't really meant it at all

Sometimes I say sorry because I always love you forever more

Yesterday Today Tomorrow Forever and Ever

I learn today that

"Love means never having to say you're sorry"

(Love story, 1970)

aku gay??

Mlm semalam aku bengang giler, masuk2 YM jer jumpa org giler…tetiber jer PM aku then tanyer, are you gay? Woi tolong r…korg ni da luper ker kt maner nih? Ni Malaysia r..jgn jadi bodoh sgt, taw r gay da ramai, tp jangan r nak perasan dunia nih korg nyer…aku segan giler tengok org sekarang, pantang ader rupa menarik sk8 da nak wat hal, aku x heran la kalu pakai baju mahal2, x dok umah asek merayap jer..g mkn tempat2 mahal..tapi kuar ngn Gay..aku sedar n sangat2 bersyukur aku x sehandsome org len, sbb aku xperlu meminta2 kt org tuk dapat aper yg aku nak..

Ader sorg mmber aku dlu pon pernah kecoh2 cakap org len Gay, tapi x sedar diri! Ko tu kawan sumer Gay! Punyer ramai mamat gay support ko! Aper ko ingt org len xtaw? (penuh ngn emosi) sbb aku marah sangat2 biler org suker wat plastic dpn aku…aku bangga dengan aper yg aku ader, biler pndang laptop aku ingt kt ayah ssh payah cari wet belikan, tgok handphone aku (N70 ori) ingt kat mak pujuk ayah belikan aku hp bru..huhuhuu…n xder nak ingt kt org len yg xperlu di ingt tuh..

Perlu ker aku cakap kt org2 yg raser dia bukan gay tuh mcm nih, “ko jangan makan budi org banyak sangat, nnt nak bls guner aper kn?” weh tolong r…kencing basuh sendri xkn ayat nih pon nak soh aku cakap kot..aku pelik giler, aper yg mamat2 Gay tuh dpt lyn korg…ker korg da bagi @#$#%^? Huh segan aku nak pikirkan..suker ati la korg nak wat aper….yg penting klu da dpt HIV cepat2 ck8 mati er…jgn ssh kn org len..untuk sumer mamat2 ensem kt luar saner tuh, maser korang gi toilet tengok tol2 aper yg korg “ader” jgn sampai cari bender yg samer gak..klu confuse ader aper gtaw, aku ley tlg tgok kan..hahaha..

“ ya Allah, sesungguhnya kami hamba2 mu yg seringkali alpa dalam melakukan dosa, ampunkanlah kami dan jadikan kami seseorang yg lebih baik dari sebelumnya..jauhkan kami dari nafsu yg dibelenggu syaitan”

some frnds said.....n u r not..

Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for a while and leave footprints on our hearts. And we are never ever the same.

What is a best friend? Almost everyone has one, and almost everyone is one. There’s something about a best friend that cannot be duplicated. Everyone has their own definition of what their own best friend is like and what an impact he or she has made in their life. In this essay I would like to take a better look at some of the simple things that we might take for granted when we think of our best friends.

A best friend is a title held for the few and privileged. The term cannot be thrown around loosely. Not just anyone can be called your best friend. A best friend has to first meet several qualifications and have many outstanding characteristics to have the honor of holding such a prestigious title. Being a best friend is more than someone that you’ve seen everyday and grown up with. A best friend can be someone with whom you’ve known since childhood but can also be someone that youve just met, and similar to love at first sight, you just click with.

Doktor gula ke doktor gila?

Cinta dan kasih sayang ni macam gula, semuanya manis…biler habes jer beli lagi, abes beli lg.. biler ader banyak duet lg manis, macam2 gula kiter akan beli..tapi biler kurang duet, sumer nyer akan kurang manis, biler xder duet langsung semuanya tawar..macam tu gak la dgn cinta ngn kasih nih..biler sampai satu masa nanti kesan nya pon samer…biler terlebih gula, kiter dpt diabetes merana la sepanjang idop selagi kiter x sedar dan x usaha nak kawal penyakit tuh..itu gak la yg jadi biler kiter terlalu sayang pada seseorang, semuanyer manis jer…tapi sampai satu maser die akan tinggalkan kiter, kiter la yg akan merana sorang diri…ingt tuh kawan2, jgn sayang org len lebih dari kamo sayang diri kamo..

hari ni hari baru ker?

da sejam masuk ari baru, sekarang kul 1 pagi..aku xley nak tido lg..mate da tekebil2 xmao tido gak..sebab aku lom ley jawap satu soklan lg..ari ni ari baru ker?

kalu ari baru naper aku still ingt aper yg jadi semalam dan semalamnya? naper aku still xley timer aper yg jadi? salah aku ker sumer org nak marah aku? salah aku ker biler aku dapat sumer yg aku nak? salah ker aku syg dia?

minggu ni kepala hotak aku berat sangat, mcm2 nak pikir.. wet da nak kering, mmg ley topup tp da bnyk wet nnt aku x reti dok diam lak..hurmm..asignment tgh bnyk giler nih..nak wat mcm mls jer..naper yer?

yg pelik nya org len akn wat mcm xder aper jer biler masuk ari baru, mcm smlm tuh x wujud pon..naper? xder ker yg korg syg berlalu dalam hari smlm? aku alien ker? or korg lahir kt marikh? aku try abeskn setiap ari aku dengan senyuman.. supaya esok bermula dengan senyuman still xley jd plastik, org still taw aku x eppy....huh salah aku gak lg..

aper pon aku still senyum, sebab aku taw dia taw aper aku raser..n ramai lg org len sygkn aku lebih dari dia syg kn aku.. hari ni dia pergi, n satu ari nnt die akan paham n klu maser tu dia dtg blik...aku arap Al-fatihah x terlalu ssh tuk dia bagi pada aku..maafkan aku atas aper pon yg aku lakukan, doakn aku bersama org2 yg beriman di sana nanti...

ahah!! sah bukan salah aku...hahaha..

“tahukah kamo sewaktu kamo tidur dengan lena, masih ada insan diluar sana Masih merindui, mencari dan cuba memahami kamu dengan lebih baik? Mungkin Kamo tidak sedar die sentiasa ada untuk kamo, cuba berikan yg terbaik untuk kamo, Tetapi kamo masih tidak sedar setiap kebaikan yg die lakukan..kamo hanya memandang Satu kesilapan yg dia pernah lakukan, sedangkan kesilapan terbesar dia lakukan ialah Bertemu dengan kamu. Tidak semua kehidupan itu sempurna, mungkin dia mahu Disayangi juga dihargai..sentiasa ingin bersama kamo kerana bimbang kehilangan Seorang lagi insan yg dia sayangi..fikirkan jika kamo tersedar ke esokan harinya dan dia Telah tiada, pada siapa kamo akan ungkapkan segala yg kamo baru sahaja fahami? Dia mungkin pernah melakukan kesilapan, tapi tahukah kamo apa yg lebih takut dia kehilangan? ‘kamo’ kamo lah yg lebih beharga padanya..’meminta maaf’ tidak akan menjadikan kamo hina, keji Atau rugi, sebaliknya membuatkan kamo sedar hidup ini tidak sempurna jika hanya ada kamo”

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