22 December 2011

22 December 2011

12.05 am..

Still dragging this eyes to sleep..

It wont even shut for a second..

Sometimes im annoyed with my own self..

The way I set things around me..

The way I stand along all the lies..

The broken promises..

It hurts…

I often said..

“its for ur own good”

“im doing this not to get paid in any ways”

But I lied..

I wish those people would hear me..

I wish people would understand me..

I need them..

I need them to know how much I want to be with them..

As often as I could..

Like sun during days..

Like moon at night..

I wish..

I would love to spell my thought out..

Freely..

But I done it before..

Where it goes straight to alley of nothingness..

It hurt me more..

N I choose not to do it again..

Faking this smile..

Shading this tears..

This would be the way..

I’ll let this heart <3 decide..

Im a slave to my own feeling..

I wont be running even got the chances..

Coz I knew..

Running away wont HUSH the feeling..

Things I kept inside..

Im stuck..

I love u..

But u neva love me that much..

Should i….?