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thanks Allah for giving me such a warm family for shelter.. thanks mak untuk bertaun penuh kasih sayang.. thanks ayah tuk bertaun kerja untuk saya study.. thanks kak long untuk cuba lengkapkan family nih.. thanks ma untuk terus kuat semangat untuk kami.. tak kira jauh ke dekat.. yang penting ingt.. kalu ingt dalam hati .. ada ke yg tahu? tu hanya alasan bagi org yg pentingkan diri sendiri.. thanks gak pada DIA .. jauh.. sangat jauh tapi sentiasa cuba untuk ada.. tak kesah kalu ada yg salah paham.. tentang DIA.. Dia pernah ada.. dan sampai bila2 pun ttp akan ada.. semua org berubah.. dan DIA ada hidup yg dia impikan.. so aku harap DIA akan bahagia.. for now .. im soo damn glad DIA ada.. "did u perform solah jumaat just now? u better did.. coz Allah will hear ur prayer.. and make it come true.." pesan DIA yg aku akn ingt... hidup perlukan pengorbanan.. tapi jangan korbankan sesuatu yg kita xkn dpt ganti.. DIA maybe bukan yg terbaik tuk aku.. t...

this 2 weeks are totaly making me way off over the limit.. demam yg sgt terok...and now batok yg xley berenti.. sangat sakit.. selasa lps.. rasa sgt sunyi.. sejam aku dlm toilet.. when i just trying to step out.. something bad happen.. aku batuk semula.. this time with blood.. hidung aku pun bedarah.. why? i feel a lil dizzy.. then aku terus duduk dlm shower tok beberapa minit lg.. teringat kt org2 yg aku syg.. did i do fair to them.. what if something bad happen to me..? rasa kecewa gak.. biler someone yg aku pernah jg dulu.. lalu lalang dpn aku.. dan tau aku sakit.. neva text even once to know if im ok or not.. tp semua org hanya akn pikirkan diri sendri kn.. just aku.. dan aku je yg terlalu memikirkan dia org.. i just want everyone to know that.. life sometime can be soo mean to us.. but neva do the same to ppl around us.. if i neva got chance to wacth the sunrise tomorrow.. i want my family and those who once knew me.. to move on.. never drop a tear.. and special credit to AHMA...

new year coming? hurmm...it doesnt have to be all new.. but some how we have to change with it.. 22 years of living in a dream being happy.. but i lied to my own self from day to day.. but now.. i found the real thing to be focus on.. no more outsiders.. just me n my beloved casabonda.. i kept my self searching for the right one.. to fill in the empty spaces.. but what i did is only making the space wider.. i dont care what people tot im turning into.. this is me.. i love soo many people.. but love doesnt have to be real.. 2011.. 23 years of getting not to be abundant .. now im well prepared.. mak + ayah = sara, aki n ma.. im going to live with that real things now.. im sorry for putting each of u aside.. im back..