singletears

maaf.. saya sangat penat.. da sampai masa untuk sÀAÀaya berehat..AAA saya da xda masa untuk cari kamu lg.. cari dia.. awak dan sesiapa pon.. masa saya da terhad.. blog nih akan sepi seketika.. dan jika saya terus menghilang.. ertinya saya terus berehat.. saya mohon maaf pada semua.. saya cuma rasa lebih baik saya sembunyikan semuanya.. terima kasih..

hari semakin suram.. ya tuhan berikan aku kekuatan.. tokbah still kt kpj kajang.. tiap2 kali jumpa dia akn nanges.. hancur rasanya hati.. dulu tokbah selalu wat lawak.. skrg sgt bnyk yg berubrah.. "aki tlg picit kpla tokbah'' x ssh nak wat mcm tu.. cume ssh nak thn air mata ni.. xnak dia tawu aku sedih.. dia kene kuat.. cepat sembuh.. dpt tgok kami ada kuarga sendiri.. when he hold my hand.. he said.. jgn simpn dndm.. jgn gaduh dgn kuarga.. dia je atuk yg smpt aku tmpg mnja.. n its breaks my heart. seing him like that.. owh Allah.. please spare him few more years.. i love him even that i knew u love him more..

i'm glad that u finally met someone.. i guess he was special person.. just like u are.. hold him right.. wish u guys the best of luck.. <3

im still looking for a piece of heart that gonna complete this chapter.. but.. when im thinking of having those feeling within me.. i kept worrying how bad its gonna hurt.. sometimes life is a bit unfair.. where bad people always wore high their pride.. of hurting people feeling.. i just wish it could be stop.. but it seem not.. and what i kept facing.. hurt.. and another hurts.. now i will always remind myself.. not to look back.. try to have another great day.. without getting hurt.. "NO LOVE" no tears.. no more you.. and always be.. "ME" " ya Rabbi jauhkan dia dari hati ku "

kadang2 aku pon pelik.. biler rmi yg ckp aku nih bertuah.. x dinafikan idop aku x sesusah org len.. cume the way they said those words are completely strange.. secara jujurnya.. aku x la se-handsome mat2 macho kt luar tuh.. x gak pndai mcm kwn2 yg len.. or kaya celah mane kn.. tp rmi yg ckp mcm nih.. "i just wish i could be at ur place" becoz of wat? org ckp aku stylo.. n ramai yg berubah lebih KEMAS lps kwn ngn aku.. n serunuk dpt buat perubahan tuh.. rmi gak dak2 kck yg nmpk aku n ckp nnt da beso nak jd mcm aku.. pelik.. sbb aper yg best nyer pasal diri aku nih? ada masanya mls nak jg pnmpilan.. but then jmp quote nih.. so i learn to love myself more.. sbb..dulu.. aku rasa org akn terima aku seadanya.. but now thing are changging... aku berubah untuk lbh dihargai.. dan bljr untuk lbh mnghargai.. hidup nih x seindah yg dilihat.. bnyk yg perlu disembunyikan.. yg pntg bibir sentiasa tersenyum.. untuk lb...

im spending 2 weeks away from casabonda.. where im trying to understand the way i am better.. tnx to ibu n abah that trying soo hard to comfort me.. mak ckp.. "kau ni sombong..ego" i said, i smile to any person that walk through me n im still "sombong?" mak ckp.. "sombong sbb x cube bljr maafkn org..ego sbb rasa apa yg kau buat sumer betol" yes i am.. wat else do i need to do..? i trust ppl around me.. i neva cared about wat there were.. miskin ker kaya ker lawa ker.. that doesnt bother me even a bit.. but do they act the same toward me? they dont.. my whole life was thinking wat the best for others.. n neva did for me.. n wat did i ask for return?  non.. but ppl always look at the negative side of me.. n when i did the same.. once again... im the only bad person who stand on earth.. klu die suker something..i would try to gave them the best i can.. klu dia x reti masak..its ok im going to cook for...