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hurmm.. serunuk dpt blik cuti.. lepak2 kt umah.. ngn casabonda.. tp biler blik umah.. masuk bilik.. tgok keliling.. K.E.N.A.N.G.A.N sgt menyiksa.. tapi memandangkn taun baru.. harapan baru.. masa untuk tutup sumer cerita lama.. lagipun aku phm sgt.. org len da lupakn sumer tuh lama dulu.. i still remember when i first get this gift.. he said.. "i hug it close to my heart before i wrap it up n send it to u" and after years of keeping it that way.. i finally washed it for the first time.. n hoping that all memories drain out from it.. as i might move on without u.. 1100 eko burung origami.. my valentine gift in 2004.. 8 years n still counting.. n i finally agreed with what faith have been telling me all the time.. we should neva talk bout this again.. i really hope to get over all this in near future.. n hoping that u will soon found someone better.. someone really love u.. really cared.. n care for u mo...

this post was exclusively wrote in memory of DBM.. after 3 years of waiting.. we finally get wat we have been dreaming for.. scroll.. soul.. answer that we hope gonna change our near future.. years of waiting.. change every heart we met.. since day 1.. to the last bit of time.. for better? worse.. siyes korg x pernah berubah.. still pentingkn diri sendiri.. aku x hrp sgt dpt lpk2 ngn korg mcm dulu.. by accepting that faith have its own match on u guys.. bertunang.. kawen.. tp x perlu la over sgt.. this suppose to be our last gathering.. isnt it? sartika embong...norainulfitri nordin.. still mcm dulu.. ckp lebih.. buat x reti.. da janji nak sabo tok amek pic sesamer.. tp biler da jmp family.. trus lupa diri.. korg da jmp family korg 2 ari lbh awal.. aku lgsung x jmp lg.. pon still ley tunggu.. pnt da aku sabo ngn korg.. biler aku ngamok.. sumer tarik muka.. klu mcm nih r kn.. bek xyah jumpa jer.. lg bagus...

new semester just started.. to many things need to be done.. yet.. im missing home for one reason.. how much mom need me now.. sekarang da mula rasa tanggungjawap tuh.. berat.. bkn sbb kerja yg perlu aku wat.. tapi berat bila pikirkn.. satu masa nnt.. mereka akn pergi selamanya.. dan aku harap aku ada untuk tmn mereka nnt.. mak masih blom sembuh.. ayah pon ada jer yg sakit.. aku plak jaoh.. aku sentiasa doa mereka sihat.. dpt tgok aku mulakn hidup baru.. balas jasa mereka dgn apa yg aku mampu.. aku pon bnyk masalah.. tp.. aku tawu.. mereka lebih bnyk yg nak ditanggung.. lebih berat dari apa yg kelihatan.. i wish i had done more to help.. i wish i was there to keep them comfort.. i wish they could see a little family that i might have one day.. n i wish...this wish could cheer them up.. every time i step away from this house.. i wish i could say this.. "mak, ayah...everything will be just fine"...

sumer org ada cara masing2.. x kire wat aper pon.. aku pon.. nak knl org pon aku bnyk wat ikot cara aku.. even sometime nmpk mcm x penting.. or pelik.. tp this is me.. aku x paksa org ikot ckp aku.. but once u considered urself part of my world.. u have to accept every single changes i made.. if u wont.. u r free to walk out.. for some reason.. aku x suker org paksa2 aku terima dia.. x kesah la sebagai apa.. i knew with whom i wanna be with.. aku bg pluang tuk cube.. tp x reti hargai.. once i turn.. dont eva expect me to look back.. coz i wont.. klu ko da ras idop ko sempurna.. go ahead leave me alone.. i got my own problem to mess with.. life is not ours to keep.. ppl come n gone.. in a minutes.. second.. or even a blink... for now.. i think it would be enough.. good enough to have my family with me.. my mom..dad..2 sisters n 2 brothers.. u got ur own family right?  so move on.. i dont want an...