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this is a gift.. from a heart.. created from sea.. made with lots of love.. one of my finest craft.. hahaa.. aku harap dia suker.. kngan picnic pertama kami.. x semahal hadiah len yg dia pernah dpt.. tp kngan yg ada tuh xkn mmpu dibayar smpi biler2..   hrp klu ada masa nnt ley lpk2 sesama lg kn.. tnx sbb selalu ada.. skrg family da knl sumer.. hahaaa~   simpan bek2 k.. hrp sumer nyer akn eppy smpi biler2.. <3  

wah.. da sgt lame x update tok seribu bintang.. agak bz cecuti nih.. to much thing i hope to work on.. n some part are already done.. huhuhuu.. so here u go.. kerana seribu bintang.. mak n ayah.. yg sentiasa ada sokong aku dari dulu.. sampi sekarang.. mak n ayah selalu x sht skrg nih.. biler ada masa lpk sesamer.. serunuk sgt.. hrp tuhan akn pnjgkn umo kiter sumer.. dan harungi hari yg mndatang dgn lbh bek.. my sis.. kak long n ma.. xder saper yg dpt gnti tmpt dia org nih.. after going through hard time for years.. kami jd makin mtg n lbh memahami.. x kire aper pon yg jd.. they still the best sibling i eva had.. ibu n abah.. x kire jauh mana.. ibu n abah mesti akn dtg jumpa kiteorg kt cnie.. dgr masalah.. share cerita.. just like we always did when we were kids.. nothing change.. just now we were much more closer.. tnx for always being here.. adik syah.. lps bertaun dia hilang.. aku x sgka dia ...

L+O+V+E = pain? ramai yg tawu ucap.. i love u.. sy syg awak.. but do they really know what is love about? it wasnt just words.. it was bout feeling.. things that tide u with a person.. person who we cared.. n cared for us too.. klu becinta.. tp mulut x berenti maki hamun.. or keep on doing something that will hurt both of u.. that wasnt love.. it was only trend.. where ppl kept on doing what others did.. klu kamo wat silap.. betulkan.. mengaku.. n mintak maaf.. klu dia marah.. BUKAN tanda dia MARAH SYG.. life is not a drama.. love is where u neva got chance to say sorry.. coz u will have to think twice before u said something.. love come from heart.. wasnt from mouth.. feel it inside.. belom terlambat tol betulkn kesilapan tuh.. be wise.. u have to know who u really love.. n who really love u.. if u kept hurting ur self for things that wont came right.. u will probably make it worse... jgn terlalu syg seseorg.. sampai lupa kn sumer yg jelas n n...

da 2-3 ari mak x sht.. lemah jer.. nak gerak pon ssh.. sakit2 bdn.. pg td mak ader appoinment ngn pakar kt ospital.. ayah xdpt cuti.. kak long ader kursus.. so aku x jd blik.. g tmn mak g ospital.. berjam2 tunggu.. sampi mak da x thn da.. then sampi giliran.. x smpt cek pon.. doktor da transfer mak kt wat kecemasan.. masa dftar jer.. trus bunyi siren zon kuning.. tuhan jer yg tawu apa aku rasa.. aku tercengang2 sini sana.. lps dftr trus msg ayah.. ayah trus amek cuti.. x sampi hati tgok mak baring dlm wad tuh.. aku diarahkn keluar.. then aku msg adik beradik yg len.. k.long kol tanyer mcm mn mak.. ma pon kol gak.. tp adik yg 2 tuh msg jer "baik" tu jer.. mak sebut name kamo siang mlm.. da la x blik2 umah lg.. kol pon xder.. kami anggp kamo mcm family.. x sangka kamo akn wat x tawu jer biler mak sakit.. demi Allah.. abg x pernah jmp org mcm nih.. tuhan tuh adil.. sampi masa nnt.. kamu akn rasa sumer nih.. aku harap mak cpt sembuh.. ...

da lama nak post pasal nih.. tp sentiasa rasa sedey.. tp it was something that i really want them to know.. teringat masa konvo rituh.. aku rasa eppy sgt dpt lpk2 ngn kwn2 dip.. jln2 merata.. walaupon bnyk yg da berubah.. tapi relationship tuh sgt kuat.. tp masa konvo tuh.. aku spoil kn rasa eppy sumer org.. tawu napa? sbb aku rasa rindu sgt kt korg sumer.. mmg korg ley ckp korg pon rindu.. tp aku yg stay kt kuis nih.. yg teringt semua kngn yg pernah ada dulu.. sumer tmpt yg kiter lpk.. sumer saat yg ada.. xboleh ker korg spare another few minutes for us.. just for once? then masa kuar ke putrajaya.. aku serunuk dgr anne ada sama.. tp aku tawu lps apa yg jd.. kami xkn same mcm dulu.. cuma.. aku pon hrp dpt betul kn sumer yg silap dulu.. mmg slh aku ngamok2 rituh.. tp ada x yg phm ape aku rasa...? xder.. cuma zaie yg tunggu smpi sumer org da blik.. tnx zaie..   aku mintak maaf klu aper yg jadi ritu.. wat ko...

mlm nih akn tido dgn lena.. rasa serunuk sgt.. rasa sgt dihargai.. td golek2 borak ngn mak n ayah.. then mak kt sungai buloh call.. windu lak nak blik sana.. baru kejap td.. adik call.. lame gak borak.. serunuk tawu dia da mula idop baru.. aku hrp dia xkn ulang kesilapan lalu.. kak long da tido.. penat g kursus halal.. adik ma lak ayah ckp nak g jom heboh.. sumer sng ati.. adik kecit aku yg sorg tuh jer.. yg sgt jrg ada.. tp aku tawu dia ingt kt aku.. cuma da sbuk ngn idop baru dia.. hrp satu masa nnt dia akn ingt aku selalu.. walaupon aku selalu bersungut.. x bersyukur.. Allah still bg aku pluang tuk bahagia.. terima kasih Allah.. hidup ini mmg indah.. selamat mlm sumer..=)

rmi yg mula tanya nape blog aku n fb aku selalu sgt sedeh2.. hahaa.. terdiam.. blog n fb yg sedeh? aku nih? actually hidup nih mmg bnyk yg sedeh.. satu pelajaran.. apa pun yg kita wat.. kita sendiri yg akn tanggung.. aku rasa aku da bnyk berubah.. tp org cume nmpk aku berubah luaran.. makin bergaya.. makin smart.. mmg.. aku paksa diri aku tuk nmpk lbh hebat.. but why...? aku nak org yg lupakn aku rasa rugi aku xder dlm idop mereka.. tapi hakikatnya.. mereka still ok ngn life mereka.. aku? yg berangan dunia nih ada untuk aku.. aku da merasa hidup senang.. duduk tmpt mewah.. mkn mahal2.. naek mcm2 knderaan mewah.. but its not wat i've been looking for.. im still looking for wat i really need.. aku x pernah bercinta..? x.. sbb aku bnyk komitmen laen.. aku xnak org tunggu aku.. mgharap pd aku.. sbb aku bnyk urusan yg blom selesai.. aku syg.. aku suka.. tp aku lbh pntgkn apa yg mereka perlukn.. bkn trus pnt...