14 february 12

satu hari yg sgt panjang..
walaupun x luahkan..
org still perasan yg aku x segembira biasa..
gembira? 
i wish i could spell it out..


the whole day aku try tok text something..
tp still xdpt luahkn..
aku try senyum..
but yet..
it turn out to be just NOT ENOUGH..


it was my lil brother birthday..
the last year he will be here..
n not even one time i got the chance to celebrate his birthday..
i wish he would read this..


aku msg kwn adik aku..
"esok klu abg belikn kek..boleh x tlg celebrate bezday
adik abg ngn kwn2 len..?"
n jawapan yg aku dpt..
"we already have plan for him...since last week"


but it was just a cake..
yea just a cake..
who would eva care..
last week?
i had dreaming for this day since 3 years ago..
n yet no one seems to care..
thanks..


jln kaki ke secret recipes..
beli kek classic cheese..
then mkn kt kedai..
tnx to fifie n nanad sbb tmn..
i wish he was there..

aku tawu aku xperlu ada..
dia bkn aku..
yg sambut bezday sorg2..
dia rmi yg syg..
cuma..

almost 12 midnight..
finaly i came out with a text..
"selamat hari lahir..."
simple..
coz i knew he wont even care..


it hurts?
it is n it will always be..